A Prayer for the removal of bitterness
God Save me
From duplicitous christian men
With their self-centred, self serving
Self justification
Their needy validation.
God save me
From my mistaken belief
That their faith would be enough
To save me from my darkness
And their strength would nourish me
In my hour of need
That promises would be reflected in deed.
God save me
From my foolishness
What a bloody imperfect fool I am
How could I not see that when he spoke
Of wanting to save this broken marriage
He didn’t mean the vows we took at altar
He meant the bricks and mortar.
And when he takes my money, and my home,
To preserve his social status
…And the woman with that shiny ring on her finger
Fresh from a luxury holiday in the Caribbean sun
–God, how that sting still lingers!
God Save me.
And God save him
From those as yet unseen imperfections
Which are bound to emerge, post-dopamine charge.
When he takes on her children -
Please let him not forget mine.
I’m sure her body is perfect
And she bears no scars
And will make a far better life-partner than I,
Whose faith is shattered by lie upon lie
Whose body is ruined
Who has no tears left to cry.
Dear God save him
From waking up lonely,
Because you can lie to make yourself feel better
And tell everyone what an ogre they are
But she loved and cherished you when in need.
And you behaved like a son, not a lover
Treated her less a wife, and more a mother.
God Save me
From self-deluding christian men
You can keep your charity and good grace
Provide me with sweet, sweet revenge
Give me strength to endure
Soften my bitterness
Just take me away from all this
God Save me.